For the sick and lowest times, and this what I feel,

* digunakan
* dipijak
* neglected
* dipulaukan
* kawan semata2 bila perlukan sesuatu
* was never part of anyone's life pon
* forgotten
* di ketepikan
* the last person to notice and remember
* after all the things that i have done, and this is what they repay me
* after all the things we have been through, this is what they did to me
* after all the intimacy with other friends , and with alot better friends , they FINALLY FORGOT ABOUT ME
* UNAPPRECIATED
* in-respect
* bila sudah ade kawan baru dan kawan yg lagi bagos , lupe kawan yg pernah bersamanya ketika susah, ketika suasana genting

P/s : i'm officially a loner , nobody's bestfriend , not gonna be anyone's intimacy buddy,just another person in their lives and out of their lives.

BYE , NICE KNOWING YOU ALL . . . (pape la)

*just remember the person who at times when you don't have a home, money friends , when no one was there to listen to your heart, and how DID all of us become united and close .. I was there. I was there who made all happened. Thank you for NOT NOTICING , but yes it does feel shit. (hmm)

Please dont keep repeating the "oh dee will always there for you when you ade problems (at times you did, but then you forgot that you ever said it)", "oh dee, will always be your BESTFRIEND" (because I don't feel part of you after all, is fake, is just temporary) "oh dee, will never forget about you, you one of us" (cause I don't feel like I'm part of you all, when you all ditching and distant me away) [REMINDER : DON'T TALK, DO ACT TOO(!)]


lagipon dh biasa dah pekara mcm ni . . .

*kerana dibold-kan ,aku memang terasa gila dgn pekara ni. (yeah, u all can say my heart DOES have an issue, issue dgn ape? dgn korang . .)

P/s : katalah ape hendak dikatakan pasal aku, kerana aku sudah biasa dgn pekara mcm ni, I am a bad friend after all am I right?! (pape la)

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Something pulls my focus out & I'm standing down,

(if it does happened , please remind me this k? :S)

And so, I'm listening to the same track about 12 times already, (Stop and Stare by One Republic) hurmmm , why Dee?!
Its the song I did for the pre-bthday dedication video footage for my two fav February boys. Who else?! S & A. I kept listening to it over and over again. It's not that I wanted to listen but there is a story behind it.

Last week was a week of HELL for me. Seriously it was. Video assignment was stressing me up. I wasn't myself that time. I have hurted someone who care for me , and been rude to him. I even cut my own wrist just to get kill the stress, but actually I was killing myself. I screamt my lungs out to my friends. Let just say I was lost and not myself enaf said. What the hell is happened to me that time!? Something happened that Thursday night, and that night changes everything right now. I don't want to know and remember that night cause all I can remember the next thing I cried and cried till the next day, Friday. A glance of his appearance making me feel so guilty and killing me softly inside. I was ashame of my mistakes and I know it was all my fault. If I were to listen to his advice, nothing bad would happen. If I and him were in a good state, nothing bad would happened. Loosing a bestfriend, is not that hard, but loosing a bestfriend that you realized he is the best genuine bestfriend you ever had, is REALLY DAMN HARD! Why am i crying him for?! Why I can't just shut my eyes for one seamless night?

So I stay strong. I want to fix things up. Yesterday , I made a special pre-bthday surprise for him. I spent my allowance for a cake , party pack : snow spray and other things. The most special thing I did for him, is that I made a pre-bthday dedication video footage for him(later if I uploaded on Youtube, I will show you guys) just to say I'm sorry and the things I have done to him and appreciating his presence in my life and of our other friends life.

First, he and I was okay with everything I did, the video and the cake. We talked ( I guess that is a sign to show that we are cool). Ate dinner at Marche, taught him how to eat there. Is quite noob at first for him, but I guess he can eat something abit different from now on. I guess everything was back to normal.



..but for awhile ,ONLY! :/

What make me feel uncomfortable is now, that things have changed since that night happened. Waiting for my message to be reply is like waiting for the sun to come out and from the rain, today. What else i need to prove to him that I am sorry for my mistakes!? isnt the video enough for you!? Do I need to cut my wrist ( DNT EVER THINK ABOUT IT , okay Dee!?). I guess if God have to punish me for my mistakes , I might as well have to accept it. I am blaming myself in this room the whole day, not coming out , not eating or drink , just seat on the bed bench and wrapped myself with warm cozy blanket just to feel someone consoling my broken heart. Is unusual for him to behave like this, not replying my message?! (don't have credit?! It can't be, you always have extra top up card in your wallet, I so do know you), is he torturing me ?! Have he forgiving me!? I don't think so. I'm expecting more than just "thanks for yesterday". I guess if he's trying to beaten up my mistakes slowly by not replying my message, is cursing me.

It's okay. I deserve it. What I need to prove to him is done. I did all I could yesterday. I'm gonna wait for the right time to confront him. I;m not resting my tears till I have confront what I want to say to him (face-to-face). If things are still the same, I guess this is the way it has to be from now on. Like I said, you will always be the bestest BESTFRIEND I ever had (you don't need to believe me, but you need to feel me ) I mean it. And again I'm so sorry( this is my 45th time of sorry to you, and I wont sick of it till things are it used to be or better). Take care. Have a nice day.:")

P/s : Remember you said this "I'm tying here to make things be better, trying to help you, always there trying to help you. Through good or bad"
So basically I'm the one now trying to do to you. Please don't be like this and make me feel guilty.

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Nabi Isa? Isabella? Lagu Popular Search tu ker!?

Wedding portrait of Ferdinand and Isabella, c. 1469

nabi isa adalah
kisah cinta dua dunia
mengapa kita berjumpa
namun akhirnya terpisah
siang jadi hilang
ditelan kegelapan malam
alam yang terpisah
melenyapkan semua kisah
dia nabi isa
lambang cinta yang lara
terpisah kerana adat yang berbeza
cinta gugur bersama
daun daun kekeringan
haluan hidupku terpisah dengan
nabi isa
tapi aku terpaksa
demi cintaku
nabi isa
moga dibukakan
pintu hati mu untuk ku
akan terbentang jalan
andainya kau setia
oh nabi isa

1. The poem sebenarnya adalah spoof dari lagu band rock Search, ‘Isabella’. Lagu ini sangat-sangat popular in the late 90′ dan hit in Indonesia.

2. Biasanya, kalau pergi berkaraoke, kebanyakan orang gemar menukar “Isabella” kepada “Nabi Isa”. Ini kerana ramai yang percaya lagu ini adalah inspirasi dari cerita sejarah dan kisah perjuangan “Isabel of Spain, The Catholic Queen” whom she married to Ferdinand of Aragon.

3. I really like the context of the poem within our current situation [i.e. the controversy over the right to use 'Allah' by non-muslims]. Its like muslims sharing tuhan and prophet. Even a friend of mine, he’s Christian, a bit angry, asked me why I was mocking the Lord Jesus (God/Tuhan) dalam poem ini. I explained, For you He is your God, but for Muslims, Nabi Isa is one of the muslim prophets, and I have the right to worship Him too. Both of us agreed and we sing a long to this song together! Peace.

[Source] arterimalaysia

Good day, Dee.

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What others things that is not OURS, beside the Internet?

Hello folks/ladies/gentleman,
Well I am not gonna waste my time here much , but I really have something to share with you guys . .
The article below is the sarcasm on the issue about discard things that are not belong to us "Malaysia". As I read the article, me and my friend Nadhir laughing ourselves out loud, cause the sarcasm they manage to pull our legs off were 100% , wait no, 110% TRUE! SO read up guys, :)


"Over the weekend, our dear Information Minister Datuk Seri Dr Rais Yatim proclaimed that Twitter, Facebook and L-band were not entirely suitable for Malaysians, "especially Muslims". The Internet is a form of business from the West, and "Malaysians are just users ... We accept all this in a state of cultural shock."

Ever-willing to heed Rais's advice, KLue got to thinkin': if the Internet is bukan budaya kita because it hails from the West, what other things common in modern Malaysia should we discard, because they originate from a westerly direction? We submit the following compilation:



The hamburger - a ground meat patty sandwiched between bread buns - has several origin stories, but all of them are set late-19th-Century America. As such, it is certifiably budaya kuning. Give up your Ramlys, my friends!

How about bak kut teh, instead? While the herbal pork soup is said to originate from Quanzhou in China, its commercial popularisation was epicentre-d in Klang. Whatever its origin, it's from the East. Halal versions, such as chi kut teh, also exist.

Oh, wait.




Hm. Since we are discussing all these fine British gentlemen, I suppose we can't run away from the following fact: the Malaysian constitutional monarchy is an import from the UK. We acquired it from our former masters, whose government itself evolved from a long process of concessions made by the English crown to the nobility and (later) parliament.

Therefore: sorry, Bar Council, the federal constitution bukan budaya kita. Parliament bukan budaya kita! Even the boundaries of Malaysia (which first saw light in the Anglo-Dutch Treaty of 1824) pun bukan budaya kita!

Oh no. This means Rais Yatim (BN, Jelebu) may have to resign, along with the rest of the Malaysian government. We'd have to revert to technical despotism.



If talk about the collapse of earthly government does not faze you, how about something more transcendental, like mosques?

Check it out: the dome, that quintessential element in Islamic architecture, is an import from the West! The earliest domed mosques in Malaysia, like Masjid Jamek, were built by the British colonial administrators, who emulated Moorish and Indian styles. Even the use of the dome in Middle East is said to originate from the Byzantine Empire.

So domes are certified budaya kuning. Looks like the Putra Mosque and Wilayah Mosque are not so kosher, suddenly ...

Why would we need Arabic-style domes in Malaysia, in the first place? The early, 100%-Nusantara mosques in this region (Masjid Agung Demak, or Kampung Laut Mosque in Kelantan) had pyramid-like timber roofs, and were modest and airy -- much more comfortable than the giant marble-and-concrete monuments of today.



What about Formula 1? Beginning in the 1970s, the FIA Formula One World Championship franchise is practically owned by one Bernie Ecclestone: a billion-Euro business owned by a mat salleh. Verdict: budaya kuning!

So forget the 1Malaysia F1 Racing Team! F1 is not our culture. Forget the Sepang Circuit -- that land would be better utilised by more palm oil plantations."

So here are some of the "sarcasm" they manage to say about , other things like our mother tongue language , the usage of English in our country and even cars (more about the article please visit here). . do government want to discard this kind of thing?! Cars and internet is our necessary in life, just because it belong to so called- "mat salleh" , why do we want to make this an issue?! We should be lucky that our lives are much more easier with the improvement in transportation and communication to our society. WE SHOULD BE THANKFUL to those intelligent "mat salleh" for bringing us peace and modernized lifestyle to our country. Well in other word , we don't want us to be call lower-class old-fashioned narrow-minded natives. ERRRR "gile kampung sial ! " -_-"

So what do you guys think about this issue? Do you guys inferred about this matter?! Are you guys shock about what Datuk Seri Rais said about this!? Perlu ker buang semua ni keluar dari negara tercinta "Malaysia" ini!? Kalau nk buang burger semua tak kesah, tapi macam mana dgn kereta?! Can the minister survive without all of these, especially cars?! HAHA , errr (cuba bayangkan menteri naik kereta api setiap hari , sikap jati diri menjaga alam sekitar? , tidak menghirau kalau harga minyak naik lagi?! errr errr . . ) HAHA.
If you guys agree/ disagree about this article , do comment down here (kalau nk kutuk , perli ker ape , it's all up to you, YOU DECIDE , YOU RESTATE!)

p/s: I bet you guys didn't realize that I'm blogging about this article in English and Malay (bahasa rojak) , mixture of English and Malay language, salah ker , ber-rojak!? Lagipon "bahasa rojak ini pun suatu fenomena yang akarnya dari pengaruhi luar yang mencemar budaya tulen kita".

[Source : KLue]

xoxoo, Dee

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History American Graphic Design,

Cover art work by John Atherton 1934, for the American magazine Advertising Art.

Before WWII, advertising in America followed the line of the copywriter rather than the designer, (written copy, not creative graphic design) but the desperation of the Great Depression called for drastic changes in advertising thinking.

When Advertising Arts started out in 1930, its mission was to promote marketing in all forms. Graphic design (or advertising art as it was called), printing, packaging, industrial products. The design of anything modern was covered. But emphasis was placed on the selling message through modern design. It had to successfully promote sales.

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Lust for Life,

Hello,

Sorry , been away for awhile.
Haven't much update my blog lately , due to busyness. Videoshoot + photoshoot = PUNCTUATE!. How amazing that is , more projects just pour on me, it feels good to just work and work , but it feels bad to just have stress and tiredness. The whole week I was with my friends updating our assignments and projects that need to be done in 2 week times. WHAT A WEEK! Back and forth from home to college and college to home , I can't seem to find myself a time-off. Photoshoot for Nadhir's was awesome, very modern-rific from the old time fairytales. HAHA Excellent! Alice in Wonderland to Phantom the Opera and to Romeo & Juliet. Fantastic (simple) photoshoot. I can't wait for the outcome of my videoshoot of hippie and colorful indie media (somehow I'm feeling hippie this whole fucking week). HAHA What a blast! Now is the finalized that I'm worry about. Oh dear Raffi (sorry saja nk boldkan + besarkan ),get well soon and HAPPY Belated BIRTHDAY TO YOU aka budak baju kuning (MENGAPA BAJU KUNING?) : HAHA LOOOONG STORY!! DAH BESAR DAH ABE KITAK NI! :) HAHA *hope to see you soon :)

Anyway here's a little video-sharing for you all, enjoy!



P/s : I love the video directing in so many different dimensional and the music! (inspired kejap) EPIC!
[MUSIC] - Lust For Life by Girls. :)

xx Dee

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